So I’ve Been Unemployed for Four Months but I Still Turned Down a Job in Spain…

Eh? Do I mean to tell you that even though I have been unemployed for four months, I turned down an awesome job in Spain? Yup, that’s exactly what I’m saying.

Now, so you really understand how insane this decision is, let me outline all the pros of this job I let go: 1k euros a month for 16 hours a week at a job I really enjoy, living in Madrid, being next to my best friend (who did take the job), having enough time and money to travel around Europe, Northern Africa, and paying some loans back.

I kept repeating this list to myself for months, trying to convince myself that I would be the biggest idiot if I let this opportunity for a glamorous life go out the window. I’ve been unemployed since April and looking for a job since June. So far, I haven’t been able to find a job in Colombia, and even if I did just because of the currency I’ll earn exponentially less than in Spain.

So why am I here instead of working to save up money for my plane ticket to Spain? I have absolutely no idea but I’m sure it’s the right choice.

Though I'm really sad I won´t be able to live in the same city as this dork
Though I’m really sad I won´t be able to live in the same city as this dork

I have a really hard time explaining it to people because it’s a choice that makes no sense whatsoever. Thing is, sometimes life doesn’t have to make sense. Sometimes you just gotta go with your gut and jump into the void even if your brain is telling you that staying on land is the better choice.

Could this mean that I might not be able to get a job here and will have to go back to Miami and work at a restaurant instead of having an adventure in Spain? Yeah, it really could end up like that, and I’ve been wrestling with the decision and wondering if I didn’t make the biggest mistake of my life. But yesterday when I was in Paipa, Boyacá, staring at the mountains and feeling the cold breeze on my face, I had the sudden certainty that I am right where I’m supposed to be.

And that might change in a couple of weeks or not change for a while. I have no idea, but right now, right now I know I made the right choice.  I’m right where I’m supposed to be and I’ll keep on taking everything life throws at me as it goes. It might be good, it might be bad, but it’ll definitely be an adventure.

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14 thoughts on “So I’ve Been Unemployed for Four Months but I Still Turned Down a Job in Spain…

  1. Your decisions don’t have to make sense to anybody else. As long as you feel good about it, that’s what matters. I dealt with a similar feeling when I left Barbados. Nobody understood except me, and I’m ok with that 🙂

    1. Agh thank you!! Even if I feel that it’s the right choice, it’s so nice to hear people that are supportive of it and that understand that even if it makes no sense I gotta go with it!

  2. I’ve made choices like this before and I’ve never regretted it.

    Also, I’m glad to hear that you like the region of Boyacá so much that you have chosen to stay there instead of going to Spain. I’m moving to Tunja today, and I’m always happy to hear that people love the region!

    1. Thanks! I don’t know how but I’m completely sure I won’t regret it either.

      That’s so exciting!! Boyacá’s so beautiful! I’m actually not moving there, I live in Bogotá, but I was there for two days working on a project. I’d never been to Paipa before and I thought it was gorgeous. What are you gonna be doing in Tunja?

      1. I will definitely have to visit Paipa then!

        I’m a Fulbright ETA, so I’ll be teaching English at UPTC, a public university in Tunja along with doing some sort of social project.

  3. I’ve sometimes regretted a few decisions about work but I would say that with each door closed, I always somehow manage to find another one opening so who knows what may happen…:)

  4. I am all for going with one’s gut. we may listen and discuss but there is really no need to justify decisions for acceptance once made. Courage to stick to your guns – that’s admirable. 🙂

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